I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I ended up where I intended to be.
-Douglas Adams
It’s a nice sentiment, isn’t it? Here I sit an almost 34 year old woman, just wondering …wondering where I would be now if I’d made different choices in life. Perhaps, I would still be here…here as a sometimes disillusioned mom of three. Of course, I would never, ever want to live life without my precious trio. But my mind has wandered lately. Wondering what if? What if I chose to stay single when I had the chance? What if I chose a different field of study years ago? What if I took a different road?
I suppose we all have moments like this, don’t we? But then reality slaps me in the face like a cold, dirty dishrag. Kids are crying wanting a mama’s love, bills are calling needing to be paid, loved ones in pain needing attention and a shoulder to lean on.
I’ve certainly had my share of rough times over the years. I guess it is the reality of these hardships that begs the questions in my mind today. I often wonder if life is really this tough for everyone or is it just me and my family in our little corner of the world? Will we ever get “there”? Most days I don’t even know where “there” is. For this week, getting “there”, means that the bills are paid, the electricity is still on and we still have a roof over our head. I long for the day when the horizon is broader and we can see beyond the mundane things that we are facing today. Maybe there is some eternal lesson yet to be learned that is keeping us in this never-ending maze. I really wish today that I knew the answer. But until then, I’ll just keep on asking, “Daddy, are we there yet?”
“A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure”
Proverbs 16:9
The Amplified Bible
